Yes boobs. If you don't want to hear about boobs you might want to stop reading.
I've had this on my chest for a while now (literally) and I just need to put it out there.
We all have them. Big or small. And there not a big deal right? Wrong. Mine are a big deal. HUGE. I provide life with mine. Nutrients and all that good stuff. Colt is almost 7 months old and for those 7 months I have given him everything he needs. And that's a lot of pressure. Drink tons of water, eat healthy, exercise, don't drink alcohol (unless you plan on giving a bottle from your frozen stash) and make sure you don't eat anything that might upset little man's tummy. It can sometimes be overwhelming. I have never been a health nut so this has been a battle.
Aside from eating healthy (when all I really want to do is eat an entire cheese pizza and drink a 2 liter of Diet Coke) I can't take any type of medicine. I have been sick a good 3 times since Colt has been born. I'm currently battling a nasty head cold and what can I take...Tylenol. Seriously? I would kill to be able to take Nyquil. At this point I could drink the whole bottle if it meant I wouldn't be sick anymore. Ok so that's a stretch but you get the point. Nursing limits you to what you can take and its hard.
I love my boobs (I wish they were smaller but it's ok). And I love my son more than the air I need to live and breathe. And Colt loves my boobs too. (Ben loves them too but that's for another blog entry :) )
My original goal was to nurse Colt until he was one. It's not that I am against formula. But why pay for something that I can give for free?
I guess my dilemma is...does it make me a bad mother to want my boobs back?
Am I selfish? If you're not a mom you probably think I'm a nut. I probably am.
Bottom line...I've given it a good run. My overly voluptuous boobs have provided Colt with all he needs. I'm not calling it quits yet but it's only a matter of time.
Moral of todays story BooBieS are amazing and they do wonderful things. They aren't just toys :)
As a side note. Race for the Cure is in June and my team is trying to raise as much money as possible to help find a cure for breast cancer! Please go online and join our team or donate what you can. It's a great cause that I hold close to my heart. Our teams name is "Breast Friends"!! Thanks :)
I think it's safe to say that you are by no means being selfish by wanting your na-na's back. :)
ReplyDeleteagreed. not selfish! i had to quit nursing canaan at 3 months because of his reflux complications. i was so so sad about it, at first. (and it didn't help that i felt like people were judging me because he is now a 'formula baby...) either way, whenever you DO stop, just know... you won't get your old boobs back. ;)
ReplyDeleteChels I think you have put up a good fight, by sticking with it as long as you have (least you can say you did try & heck for a YEAR almost)...so NO its not selfish to want your apples back...<3 you & can't wait to do race for the cure..."Breast Friends" Love it!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteChelsea you are human not selfish!!! I am counting down the days until Devan is a year. I can't wait to stop nursing, but I will miss the time with my baby. I hit a wall around 7 months too. Take it day by day. I make Callie wash any bottles. That is one of my rewards for nursing...I will not wash a bottle;) I have also cut back on pumping. Devan gets some formula here and there when I am not around and I haven't pumped. Similac at least make single serving to go packs that we use since we only use them here and there and once a big can is opened the powder has to be used in a month. Just know as you cut back you increase the chance that that little monthly friend will start showing back up again.;) good luck and know you are not the only mother out there that wants her tatas back!!!
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